Well, Lent has started, and I feel as though this year, I am really going into the desert.
Before Lent began, I had this sense that God was saying,
"If He empties you, it is only so He can fill you more abundantly."
And so it began.
Have you ever felt like God was doing an excavation in your heart? That's what I feel like is happening to me this Lent. It's intense.
And you know what I want to say to God?
"Stop! Don't go there! We do not need to dig up that artifact! It was just fine in here until You came in. That dusty old thing that was crowding a corner in my heart? Just leave it there. I know, it's making me sneeze. That other rusty thing in front of me? Don't touch it. Just let it be. I know...I can't walk over it without tripping. But it's too heavy to move. And I'm used to seeing it sit there. Too much discombobulution, Lord. Stop digging. It hurts. Stop clearing. I don't want to be disturbed. JUST LEAVE IT."
But God loves me too much to just leave it. He is making space. He is tearing me down.
If He tears down, it is only to build me back up.
And no one pours new wine into old wineskins...